“Lord,” I said, “how come I’m giving You all this love, and I don’t feel anything coming back to me? Here I am, my fingertips straining to caress You, my arms desperately reaching for You, and my body swaying with the music in the delight of loving You. My love for You feels like a freight train rushing up from my toes and racing into Heaven to deliver carload after carload of love. And from You there is nothing. Why is that?”
I said, “So then You are pouring out Your love on me while I am sending my love to You?”
“Yes,” He quietly said.
“Why don’t I feel it?”
“Because you are focused on your love for Me.”
I decided that I would then focus on His love coming to me, and I looked for it. Rushing down from Heaven clamored this heavy-duty freight train of love that charged right through my body, but when it got to my feet, it didn’t turn around and go back up to Him. It kind of crashed right there in my shoes.
I said, “What’s this? Why did Your love just stop?”
He said, “My love goes in a circle. You must keep on giving love in order for My love to flow through you. That trainload of love is still chugging away, isn’t it? It just doesn’t have anywhere to go. If you will keep loving Me, My love will overwhelm you. You and I will be a continuous circle of love.”
I returned to gushing my love on Him, and then I could feel His love being poured out on me. . . .