Underneath all those negative attributes I saw in myself, like Competition, I saw one stone on which they all rested: Murder. It is no accident that the story of Cain and Able is in the Bible. That one incident of Cain killing Able is the example of every action we take against someone else, when all we’re trying to do is promote ourselves. And that’s the whole point. We don’t have to promote ourselves. Our God has planned everything, if we’ll just follow His directions. He is the lifter of our heads.
As a young woman I loved playing tennis, but I don’t remember ever winning a match, or even a game. I loved the action it took to play, and I was happy for whoever won. That’s the only activity I could say that about; for the rest I was out for “the kill.” I don’t want that kind of competitive spirit to be in me; I don’t want to defeat anyone, so I asked the Lord how to get rid of it. He said to starve it. Don’t feed that spirit, and it will go away. When I participate in life by enjoying the action, promoting other people, without focusing on who will win, my Creator enjoys me, and He is the one who wins.
Writing has been in my blood, so to speak, but when I surrendered my life to Jesus Christ and He told me to write, all my trepidations rolled away and I began in earnest! After all, if God Almighty says it was His idea that I be a writer, who am I to stand in His way? My hope is that you not only like what I write, but that your life is moved by it, and that your party to Jesus and with Jesus turns your life into days of Heaven on Earth.