. . . that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of glory, may give to you the spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of Him, (Ephesians 1:17).
It takes wisdom and revelation to actually know Jesus. Knowing about Him isn’t enough. When I surrendered to His love, my mother told me I had to choose between her and Jesus. That was confusing. I knew Jesus. When I read that I must know Him in the power of His resurrection, I chose to pursue Him through that very thing. I imagined myself walking behind Him down to the Garden of Gethsemane, I went off to the side and prayed with Him three times, and then by His side, we found the disciples asleep. I walked with Him as the soldiers took Him to the house of Annas. I received the insults being thrown at Him. He kept quiet; I did, too. By the time they were shouting “Crucify Him,” I was accustomed to the crowd being against us in our suffering. Where were His family and friends? Where were mine? Would no one stand up for us?
I bore the cross with Him. I felt the nails pierce my hands and feet, just like He felt. I stayed with Him till the Resurrection brought Him back to life, and I listened to Mary’s dialogue with Him, thinking He was the gardener. He had to go to His Father. That trip I could not make. His blood was going to the Father, and together they would place it on the altar in heaven where it will remain forever, drawing all flesh to His side. He died for me. No one has ever volunteered to die for me. Only Jesus. Yes, I know Him.
I told my mother I could not choose between them. I knew them both. She was my mother and that would never, ever change. Even if she kicked me out of the house, as she often threatened to do, she would still hold the title of Mother. Jesus is my Lord, and that will never, ever change. Then I knew what I must do. I said to Jesus, “I refused You once. May I have another chance?” He smiled and spread His arms wide open, and I ran into them.
You may think I daydreamed all this. That’s because you are missing knowledge of the three heavens. We live in the first heaven here on earth with all the rest of His creation that is within our realm of gravity.
The second heaven is beyond our universe where all the angels and demons confront each other—the demons wanting to destroy God’s creation and the angels wanting to protect and direct God’s creation. We can enter the second heaven and discover much wisdom, but we’re usually too preoccupied with the first heaven to consider the second.
The third heaven is where God lives—as does Jesus. They have sent their Holy Spirit to live in the first heaven, and the place of abode for the Holy Spirit is in our spirits, in those of us who have surrendered ourselves to knowing and loving Him.