Because of attitudes, words, and actions formed against me by others, when I was first born again, I was filled with lies that I believed about myself—lies that had haunted me from my early childhood. Because of the turmoil within me, I asked the Lord to help me sort things out. He said, “It’s not what has happened to you that created this turmoil (I was an illegitimate child, my stepfather raped me for years, etc.); it’s because of the lies you’ve believed about yourself that has created the chaos.” He then gave me a prayer process to expose the lie (one at a time), recognize the damage it had done and where it came from, and then to receive the truth, pull out the lie, and plant the truth in its place. I used that process to pull out more than 200 lies.
I have been changed, and yet I could see quite clearly that I was not the very image of Jesus Christ. Though my mind was renewed and my emotions were healed, where was the nature of my Lord? I wanted to be like Him. What more was required of me? Then I saw it. Beneath that layer of lies lay the mass of myself. No one had inflicted on me the disgusting matter that I saw; I had created myself to be like that. I probably entered into a state of what the old-timers called “Dying to Self.”
To be continued. . . .
Writing has been in my blood, so to speak, but when I surrendered my life to Jesus Christ and He told me to write, all my trepidations rolled away and I began in earnest! After all, if God Almighty says it was His idea that I be a writer, who am I to stand in His way? My hope is that you not only like what I write, but that your life is moved by it, and that your party to Jesus and with Jesus turns your life into days of Heaven on Earth.